I don’t know about you guys but I’m constantly searching for that one thing that lights me up. Actually, I have a list of things that light me up but I’m talking about that one thing that I can make as a career and feel a sense of pride and satisfaction. Whatever it is, it’s going to make me smile so hard that it hurts (in a good way) because I’m so determined to find it and make sure it’s magical. It’s just taking a little longer than expected.

Previously (like a year ago…) I wrote about how I felt that my purpose was so close to blossoming. I felt that it was right under my nose but at the same time, I wasn’t quite sure of what it was. Well… I’m still over here… another year later… on the other side of the world… still searching for it. It’s difficult because there are several things that light me up: sewing, macrame or anything DIY, spiritual practices such as tarot, human design, astrology, numerology. I also love yoga and have enrolled to do my teacher training in Nepal at the end of the year. And on top of that I have this calling to enrol in a fashion design and pattern making course. There’s just so many options and I just can’t seem to pin point which one I should focus on.

Then there’s this side of me that likes the idea of doing lots of different things. Because why limit myself? Why not just do a bit of everything that brings me joy? Maybe I can be that dress making, tarot reading, Yogi? Maybe I could be a teacher in the art of being a “Jack of all trades, master of none”… Is that a thing? And is that a bad thing? Or is it good to dabble in a variety of hobbies and trades? The ideas seem to change every week. What I am certain of is that I want to work for myself. I’ve been sure of this for a few years now because I’ve learned that I need the freedom and flexibility otherwise I get restless. It’s also important to me that I enjoy my work.

So you’ve probably gathered that I’m a big, massive “Dreamy Dreamer”. My mind is always having lots of parties and the theme changes quite often. Right now, the theme of the party is “Dream Career” and the guests are all showing up in different costumes trying to win best dressed. The Judge (me) is so overwhelmed because everyone looks so fancy and desirable and the Judge just can’t decide. The lady dressed as a Yogi is totally zenned out and every now and then she impresses the Judge by doing an effortless headstand. Others gather around as she tries to teach them the skills. She may have the best party trick but does she have what it takes to teach a large class on a regular basis? She’s usually quite introverted and may not feel very confident.

Another lady is dressed as a New Age Spiritual Life Coach. She’s casually shuffling her cards, reading people and helping them realise their potential. She’s happy because she loves inspiring people and encouraging them to live their best life. She envisions herself living a life of service, and feels that one day, a big part of her heart will be filled with purpose that brings so much meaning to her. But does she have the skills and certifications to provide her best work yet?

This party isn’t just about the outfits by the way. These guests also need to show up and be in full character to impress this tough Judge…

There’s one more lady that also stands out for the Judge. She’s showing off her latest self-made party dress, spinning and twirling and feeling proud. She is a Fashion Designer/Seamstress that aspires to have her own beautiful, fully equipped, work space where she can sew to her heart’s content.  She also wants to help other women learn to sew, and provide her clients with uniquely designed clothing that makes them feel fresh and fabulous. At this stage she mainly sews for herself, but does she have what it takes to buckle down and study for a year or two, advance her skills, and work hard to get that fancy work space happening?

So the Judge is very impressed by the costumes, talents and dreams of all these contestants, but is really struggling to pick a winner. Yes they have some pretty cool party tricks but could they develop their tricks into a profession and actually be the “real deal”? The Judge might have to pull an all-nighter (or several) on this one. Maybe the morning sun can shine light on this situation…

Or, maybe the Judge can just chill the flip out (just a little) and give all the guests a fair go to at least present themselves properly. Maybe the Judge just needs to get to know the contestants better, have a little flirt you know? See which one clicks the most. Maybe they all click. And maybe that’s fine too.

Surely I’m not the only 20 something (or 30 something) that’s feeling slightly or extremely overwhelmed with all the fun possibilities that life has to offer. Which career path do we take? And does it HAVE to be one path? Or, can we just try all of them? I’m asking as if there’s a rule book for life. There isn’t, I know that. But it would be nice to have a little guidance in taking the next step.